This week has def been a blah/gloomy one. Apparently I’m not the only one though? At first I thought it might be all of the gray and rain outside. Ok maybe that’s part of it. Then I thought, maybe it’s just almost that time of the month? Probably. I think one word really just sums it all up though. Overwhelmed. I am really feeling overwhelmed right now. Can I vent for just a moment? I promise there’s a chocolate and wine filled hotel room at the end of this Here’s my list of things I take issue with right now (I’ll keep it short):
- X amount of months ago my hubby left for deployment
- 8 weeks later I was told I had to leave the country for X amount of months
- I left the country 6 weeks before my hubby got home
- I’m due back home on date Y
- Date Y marks 10+ months of separation from the hubby
- We just found out that Date Y also quite possibly marks the day that my hubby has to leave for a 6 week training course
Ok I brought this one on myself but it’s still part of the problem. I work full time and yet I’m taking an accelerated Anatomy and Physiology class ONLINE with a Lab. It’s hard enough trying to get in touch with Professors when you’re actually in the class but now I can’t even ask questions to their face. I know, I know. I signed up for the class. <still not making me feel better>
Speaking of the full time job. I happen to personally supervise 4 airmen. I love that job most of the time. Especially when they deserve an award and I can write the package that gets it for them. However, it is not fun when I have to write three yearly performance evaluations, two awards packages, and a 6 month feedback all in the span of two weeks. Thanks for the heads up boss! <—add all of that to Issue 2
I am sleep deprived. It’s because of issues 1-3 but also because I work a mid shift schedule (11PM – 7 AM) and have to sleep in a room full of day light every. single. day. We have the flimsy blinds that don’t block a ton of light. I have dark blue sheets hanging on my window by my bed. It’s still way bright in there and I can’t fall asleep until I’m too exhausted to care how bright it is. Then because I know I have to take care of Issues 2 &3 I get up too early. I’m not rested and then it’s hard to concentrate and the whole endless process leaves me tired, cranky and stressed. Did I mention that I sleep on an air mattress on top of a cot???
Phew! Ok I’m done venting now. Thank you! Hope you’re still there because I decided to do some things for myself. First I got myself some chocolate!
Then I booked myself a three day weekend here:
Do you see that glorious set of blackout curtains??? Next I will be getting myself a bottle of wine and will be holing up here for the entire weekend. No one will be seeing me unless they’re up early Saturday morning. I will be doing my long run that day. The entire weekend is going to be me trying to catch up on a mountain of work, homework and SLEEP. In a real bed no less!
Hope you all have a fantastic weekend!